i see how i serve no purpose in your life anymore..
it's been three months. how time flies..
i freaking miss you and no matter who i am with, it doesn't feel the same as when i'm with you.
what do you expect me to do? you pulled the trigger, and both of us paid the price. well, in different terms of course. life goes on for you pretty much in a straight line i suppose but for me it's gonna be an uphill task.
i've been on an adventure, for the past three months. something never thought would discover in myself. i'm actually stronger than i thought but at the same time, i learnt how weak i am too.
but i whine much less baby. much less than I was with you. strangely, i miss the complaining.
my gooberest friend told me the other day that you lost someone who made a difference in your life. i realised just how we could have been so much more if only i settled for something less, and if only you had compromised.
we made our decisions and it seems there's really no turning back, is there?
i wanna be in your life if it still matters but i really don't know how. i've never moved on baby and she knows how i feel about you. she knows how much I want you. everyone knows how much you mean to me.
you make my veins pop with your nonsense and all the gay shit which you give me every month we were together. i didn't even make it to the stage to let you see me up there the second time. you know how i could make people smile but you took that away. i don't get that anymore, and you won't either.
but it's never about that actually. you give me the comfort which i sorely miss right now.